I was one angry child. And, with the support of my family system, my schools and the community we lived in, I learned that there was something very wrong with me for feeling so incredibly angry.

So, I learned to be nice. To be happy. To smile a lot. To ignore, suppress, and to deny how I really felt. I could fit in or I could feel how I felt: angry. Pick one. Not both.

I developed the idea:

Whatever is begun in anger ends in shame.

– Benjamin Franklin

I wanted to belong, so I chose to be nice and happy and to ignore/suppress/deny my anger.

I lived like this:

I don’t usually lose my temper, but if I get angry, it’s true – I’m scary.

– Eva Mendes

Inevitably, my anger would eventually overflow and overpower my capacity to tamp it down. In those moments, I was scary. Explosively scary. Then, shame would follow, and I would reiterate my desire to not let this happen again – to not feel angry again. I’d work even harder to ignore/suppress/deny what I was feeling.

To say this did not work well for me is a gross understatement.

These days, I’ve started to question the assumptions about anger that I adopted from society, and I’m starting to see anger from a different perspective:

  • What if anger is a HEALTHY emotion?
  • What if what we typically associate with anger is the acting out of anger, not anger itself?
  • What if acting out anger is a result of chronic ignoring/suppressing/denying?
  • What if I honor the feeling of anger when it arises and take the time to see what my anger is attempting to communicate to me?

I’ve learned to see anger as a symptom of something deeper, and so the question I ask myself when I notice feeling irritated, frustrated, angry or bottled up is:

What is it that is not working for me in this moment?

Instead of assuming that there is something wrong with me for feeling irritated, frustrated, angry or furious, I assume that I’m feeling that way for a good reason.

Then, I stop and look.

Anger is a taboo in our society

There are a lot of schools of thought out there that tell us that anger is bad, destructive, problematic, limiting, or worse. I’m sure you have your own versions of this… here are a few:

When angry, count to ten before you speak. If very angry, count to one hundred.

– Thomas Jefferson

To be angry is to revenge the faults of others on ourselves.

– Alexander Pope 

The greatest remedy for anger is delay.

– Lucius Annaeus Seneca

The assumption, according to this wisdom, is that anger is “bad” and that the “right thing to do” is to suppress, deny, or wait it out.

I don’t know how well that works for you. For me, it becomes a bit like a game of whack-a-mole. Suppress one place, pop-up in another.

There is truth in the above wisdom – particularly if we’re talking about acting out anger.

Acting out is rarely helpful.

But, if we’re talking about feeling anger, then it’s another story.

My experience is that my suppressed anger often ended up squirting out somewhere less than ideal and frequently at very inopportune moments. Oops.

“Anybody can become angry – that is easy, but to be angry with the right person and to the right degree and at the right time and for the right purpose, and in the right way – that is not within everybody’s power and is not easy.”

– Aristotle

There is also a lot of wisdom out there that supports honoring the feeling of anger.

A man that does not know how to be angry does not know how to be good.

– Henry Ward Beecher

Anger is one of the sinews of the soul.

– Thomas Fuller

I’m not advocating for acting out anger. Raging, lashing out, yelling, or cutting someone off rarely has an upside, aside from perhaps momentary self-satisfaction. It is usually a relationship or career-limiting move.

I’m advocating for taking a look to see how feeling anger serves you – anger in its healthiest form.

Many of us did not benefit from parents or caregivers that understood that protest and anger have a clear purpose in children. It’s an expression that something is not working for us. And, when heard through that lens, it invites caregivers to listen, to see what the issue is.

What if anger, in its healthiest form, is merely a communication that something is not working for us? That it’s an indicator to pay attention, to notice?

An exercise in understanding anger

Take a moment now. Think of a time recently when you felt anger. (If you don’t feel anger often, that’s an indicator too. I’ll get to that in a moment…)

  1. Sit quietly and take 3 breaths, slowly.
  2. Now gently remember the recent event where you felt angry or frustrated.
  3. Pay attention to what happens in your body. Does your breath shift? Do you tighten? Where?
  4. What happens in your thoughts? Are you replaying the details quickly?
  5. Just notice.
  6. Repeat the first 5 steps, this time more slowly. Take your time with each step and notice what happens in your system, overall.
  7. See if you get a sense of what you needed, what was not working for you in that situation:
    1. If you find yourself wanting someone else to be different so you can feel better, notice that.
    2. If you watch your attention going to blaming someone else, notice that, too.
    3. Maybe you find yourself criticizing yourself. That’s good information, too. Just notice.
    4. Perhaps you notice all of the above. Notice that, too.

To me, noticing is one of the most underrated, underutilized tools we have. Consider using it.

But, what if I rarely feel angry?

Generally speaking, if a human being never shows anger, then I think something’s wrong. He’s not right in the brain.

– Dalai Lama

I like the Dalai Lama’s straightforwardness.

If anger is not an emotion you experience a lot, you might consider that this could be the result of the fact that you were taught to not feel or recognize when things don’t work for you. Just because we don’t’ recognize it, doesn’t mean it’s not there. Ask your partner or your kids what they notice. You may be surprised!

Some of us, like me, learned to be nice in order to feel like we had a place. We learned to not feel when things didn’t work for us in order to fit in. As kids, this often works for us, albeit intermittently. As adults, suppressing anger just as often does not work at all.

The injunction to be nice is used to deflect criticism and stifle the legitimate anger of dissent.

            – Malcolm Gladwell


Just being nice rarely serves us. Being kind does. Being nice is often a front for not wanting to feel conflict, or not wanting to feel at risk of losing connection, or not wanting to risk the possibility of not feeling as if we belong. We may nice ourselves to death avoiding these risks. It’s important to remember that we learned to do this, to be nice and not express dissent, or anger, for good reason.

We’re taught to be ashamed of confusion, anger, fear and sadness, and to me they’re of equal value to happiness, excitement and inspiration.

– Alanis Morissette

It’s important to acknowledge when a strategy that worked as a child has passed it’s expiration date. Once expired, it’s no longer useful. It then works against us instead of for us. I’ve found that is the case for not acknowledging my feelings of anger or dissent.

Anger is a great force. If you control it, it can be transmuted into a power

which can move the whole world.

– William Shenstone

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